I Miss You

Getting on this morning my dashboard says my last post was a month ago.  It does not feel like that much time has passed but it has.

I can’t even remember what was on my mind to blog about, I can remember Bob and I laughing and planning blogs about Mr. Mud (the guy she is still flirting around with – I dumped my confused gentleman off at the intersection of “Yesterday” and “Tomorrow”).

But what I do remember is….our boss died.  April 3rd, in her sleep without symptoms or any warning.  Bob, myself and our entire organization are still in shock.

Funeral – Shock

Then, there were reports to be filed, conference calls to attend, interviews for money she had applied for from larger organizations…..all paperwork and people work to be done without her here.

Payroll. Paperwork. Memorial donations. Paperwork.  Employees quit. Paperwork.  Employees

hired. Paperwork.  A supervisor wanting to take me to lunch for “Administrative Assistant Day” – to which I told him I did not want to do the paperwork – my job is split into 4 different percentages because of the contracts we hold – I would have to split my lunch and drink 4 times and his twice – I just didn’t want the hassle – for one itty bitty credit card receipt !

Grief is a funny thing, everyone processes at their own pace.  I don’t think I have begun the process yet.  I am functioning at a level that says she is simply out of the building – it does not register with me that she is never coming back unless her family stops by to drop something off.

I would appreciate your prayers ladies, I’m not sure which is worse….learning her job one step at a time with whatever is thrown at me or the realization that the Board of Directors will hire her replacement and then I must submit to their authority.  As for me being promoted – not an option – I am about 4 years away from the two pieces of paper that would qualify me to do the work I am doing.  A degree and a license.

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For her and her family I say that she was a believer in Jesus Christ as the way, the truth and the life – so I believe she is dancing and praising God now – fully free and fully alive!